As 2012 draws to a close, I feel a tinge of sadness, as this year meant a lot to me. It is extra special because this is the year I became a Mother, the first year I experienced love of a truly unconditional kind.
I never knew I was capable of being such a person, and this has caught me by surprise. I have much to be thankful for, from the support from the Hubbers to the blessing (or maybe resignation) from my relatives that has made my 12-month sabbatical possible.
Every day I am learning and growing along with Baby K, and delighting in able be personally there to witness her achieving all her developmental milestones. There is no joy more rewarding than seeing your little one thrive under your care. Thanks to her, I have learnt to be more resourceful, more patient, more relaxed and indeed, happier.
However, being a parent also brought with it some lows. Resentment towards being constantly told how I should parent my child, needlessly judging others for their own parenting decisions, laziness for not wanting to think beyond my sabbatical (and for not picking up after myself at home), taking the Hubbers for granted at times and making things difficult for him at others. These things I am not proud of.
Looking ahead, I want to be a better, more positive person in 2013 and beyond. I want to be a good example for my daughter, so that she can be the best person she can possibly be.
All that has been distilled and encapsulated in a deceptively small resolution: No iPhone at the dinner table. In it is hidden the values of good table manners, valuing personal relationships with people face to face over those in cyberspace, properly enjoying my food, just to name a few. It's going to be tough, but it's also going to be worth my while. :)
Aside: This post grew from a FB status update, which I thought better off. Somehow, writing to all and sundry (and simultaneously, no one in particular) gives me a happily false cloak of anonymity. If you've cared to read so far, care to share what your new year resolution is? Otherwise, continue enjoying the (much real-er) cloak of anonymity and a very Happy New Year to you and your loved ones! :)
